Final rant before signing off

I guess this will be my final rant before signing off :p

2 years in my post is not long, but it sure has been a difficult road for me. And many changes have occured. For one, the volleyball team is more organized now. we have both males and females team and we go for competition. but with that, it seems that the joy of playing volleyball is lost. the pressure to excel and to do well is always there during training and competition.

also, i think that i do a lot of things myself. maybe i OCPD, or control freak, but i think mainly i don't really trust people in doing things? therefore i took most of the burden myself and sometimes it's really hard when i need to convey the message across cause volleyballers like to TALK and no one really LISTENS (u know who i am talking about? XD). talk about karaoke, everyone listens. talk about clubbing, everyone listens. ask about trip, everyone reply (ok let me rephrase, more people reply). i send mail about volleyball, veeeeeeeery few people reply.. most of the time, none.

everytime i don't go training, sure got balls lost 1. ask them where it is, they say hit until somewhere somewhere don't know where. worst part is, sometimes it seems as if the people who train/play that day don't care. ask me not to worry cause ball will come back. yeah right.. like how? drop from the sky? this year i managed to ask Help to buy 7 new balls, and we should have 15 - 16 balls, 2 baskets full. now?

sometimes i do wonder to myself, y should i be so concern when it seems that nobody is concerned. but concern i still do because I LOVE U PEOPLE. to see some or many of you progressing is one of my greatest source of pleasure. but maybe i love you people to the extend that it's unhealthy. i guess it's cause i don't scold people. to me, scolding is useless cause if you have decided on something, it's your life and you have absolute right in deciding so. people don't always see eye to eye on many issues and i am fine with it. probably it's because of this, because i relent too much, nobody really takes me seriously. also i guess i am afraid that i might hurt anyone's feelings. so anything also i ok ok. my bad i guess.. my bad

I would like to take this opportunity to give special thanks to some people:

Ying Zhou: thanks for running the show whenever i am unavailable. having you as one of my committee is a challenge and at the same time a blessing. challenge because you ask a lot of questions which need me to go and find out the answers. blessings because by your constant questioning, i improve and don't slack off. 'play against who?' 'how we going?' 'MAHAI, WHERE CAN LIKE THAT?' XD

Belle: thanks for always attending meetings and updating me about it. I know it's super boring, but you endure it without complain. XD thanks also for helping me on things which i ask you for such as washing jersey, go DSA etc.

to both of you, my greatest appreciation.

also, i would like to extend my thanks to people who would fetch other people back home or to stations. to me, it really feels as if we are 1 big family where we make sure other people are back safely. Kay Chong, Khoi Yit, Alexis, Ying Zhou, Alvin, and all others who have contributed in one way or another.. THANKS~

i also got some people which i don't really like which i would want to say. am i bad in doing this? hmm.. i shall not use names

X: to me, sometimes i really want to take your head and bang to the wall. talking to u seems to be really useless. i say 1 thing, u say back 5 things.. i say 2 things, u say back 15 things. u seem to know how to do tai chi very well. things u can push, u push, things u cannot push, you avoid, things u cannot avoid, u run. i hope u grow up and be more responsible. think before you speak. the world doesn't revolves around u and your life. there are other people around who when they ask for help, is it so hard to help?

hmm.. oh.. i guess i only bu shuang one person. XD

finally, I would like to apologize if I have done any mistakes throughout these 2 years. If I have done anything which you think I have in some way violated you, I am sorry.

Good job to the girls for getting 2 years champion for MAPCU. Guys, great performance also today. Work harder for next year :D

Signing off officially

Terence

God Bless~